I had big dreams. I never even had time to take a lunch during my junior and senior years in high school. I was too busy taking college prep classes and business classes so I would have skills to work my way through college. It was important to me to have a good career so that I could be self-sufficient once I had a family. I wasn't preparing myself for a divorce, but I wanted to make sure that I could take care of myself and my children. I planned to major in business in college and then go on to law school.
Then, I found out I was pregnant with Ashleigh. I graduated early and attended one semester at community college while the rest of my class finished up their senior year.
Everything. Changed.
Those dreams that I had seemed unimportant. Even before she was born, I knew. I knew what I was meant to do with my life. I am not sure I can explain how I knew. I just knew.
I can remember seeing a show where a bunch of teen moms were asked if they would do it all over again if given the chance for a do-over. None of them would. I would. In a heartbeat. I absolutely could not change having that girl in my life.
I wouldn't trade my boy in for the world. Not a chance!
ReplyDeleteI'm guessing the girls they asked were likely under some pressure to answer in a certain way. I don't know any really good moms who would give up their children to gain a career instead.
It was a show with Dr. Brazleton, maybe? I think they were discussing how difficult it had been at such a young age.
ReplyDeleteDid you ever watch "The Ultimate Gift"? Some critics viewed it as an antiabortion film just because the single mother of a little girl said, "She's the best decision I ever made."
ReplyDeleteI sure am glad you did it! Life without ash would be terrible! Not to mention you are the best mom we could ever ask for! Love you!
ReplyDelete-Bethany