Monday, April 16, 2012


Over the last week, I have mulled some things over.  Reality has settled in.  I never expected it to take this long for us to begin to be matched up with kids.  It is discouraging.  It is frustrating.  I could be mad that the process took so long. 

I could be, except I KNOW that my God has a plan for all of our lives.  My kids who are not yet home, as well as our biological family.  God was so clear in leading us.  He will continue to lead, but I am disappointed.  I can feel it more and more as I process things.  I feel ready.  We have done the work to prepare.  Where are our kids? 

If we move from here soon, (which looks probable) we will have to start the whole process all over again (says NJ).  So what have we gained by doing all of this??

We did what God told us to do.  That has to be enough.


Melanie L said...

I know what it's like to believe with all your heart that you are doing what God has called you to do, but the timing or the outcome is not what you expected. The Hebrews "Wall of Faith" chapter says that not all listed received what was promised. Yet God celebrates their faithfulness and we read about and are encouraged by them. Honestly, I'd much rather be one of those who was faithful and DID receive what He called me to pray for! I believe that if/when I receive what I long for, the waiting will seem as nothing. 1 Samuel 15:22 says "To obey is better than sacrifice." And so I obey even when it doesn't make sense. In God's time you will understand the purpose for waiting. But oh, why does it always seem that God's time takes longer than we wish!

Heather said...

You are right, Melanie. I have been pondering this so much in the past few days. God is in control of the details. My job is to obey.