I once had a little girl who was often anxious. She sucked two of her little fingers and even as she grew she continued this habit when she felt nervous or anxious. I remember asking her one day when she was in second grade if she got embarrassed at school when she was sucking her fingers since she was now so big. She told me that she would simply put her head under her desk so it was no worry:-)
That little girl did stop sucking her fingers during her second grade year, but immediately took up biting her nails...another anxiety soothing activity.
As she grew, she went to the Word, she took her cares to her Lord and Savior, but she still struggled.
She also did some really fantastic things and was so brave, but as the end of high school drew near and decisions needed to be made about college, those anxieties came out once again. It all ended with a Mom and Dad leaving a very angry daughter at Word of Life Bible Institute. They parted with very heavy hearts.
Ashleigh has learned to trust and to get over her anxieties for the most part in her life.
A few months ago, Ashleigh started having some health problems. At first, she tried coping. She wanted to see if the problems were stress related. Eventually she could not ignore them, and became proactive about going to doctors and having some tests done.
I believe the computer can be a blessing and a curse at the same time. For someone who struggles with anxiety, reading about all of the things you could possibly have can be a bit of a curse. Being someone who is anxious at times, makes it very hard not to read all the information.
Ashleigh has stopped reading the information online. She also just had several tests done and they all came back negative. The doctor who first diagnosed her with a stomach infection may or may not have been correct says a specialist. So, what is going on? Ashleigh is left wondering if the beginning symptoms caused her so much worry added in with the extra online information that she has become very sick.
I often find it so funny? that with all of the temptations in the world, Satan often uses the same one on us over and over again. He doesn't always need to be very resourceful. When we are prone to a certain weakness, he can use that one over and over again. I know he has done that in my life and I find myself learning the same lessons over and over again and wonder when I will ever GET it!
So, Ashleigh will continue to try to figure out what is going on physically while at the same time trying to give everything over to the Lord and rest in His care for her. I am proud of her.
I am praying for you, Loubie and I love you very much!!
P.S. Did I forget to mention that the little girl above once had a young mom who thought she was sick and was often throwing up through the night? Later, that young mom found out it was her nerves. How quickly I forget where I once was;-)